Nostalgia ...
The Feeling of Home Sickness, is derived from Greek words 'Nostos' - Home and 'Algos' - Pain i.e. Pain for Home ....
This feeling is usually experienced by people living far far away from their families and homes.
But Why Am I talking about it???
I live in NOIDA with my own family ... and for the past 6 months, I have become more & more (infact, almost completely) a home person with little outwardly exposure, if any ... My friends and family can testify it ...
So What Do I know about Nostalgia ... and What am I being nostalgic about ... My job has always kept me near my family and now even though I'll join a PSU after a sabbtical of 6 months, I'm still gonna be in NOIDA for the next 6 months ... atleast ...
Well This Nostalgia is not the pain for home ... Infact its the pain for leaving the state of worklessness and idleness that I'd fallen into for 6 months ... Now that I'll have to go Back to the wreck of a life of the so called Corporate ...
Well So, on second thoughts, let's not call my present state of mind as Nostalgia ... let's call it INERTIA ...
'Coz I wasn't pained at all when I thought I'd have to go to Bhubhneshwar, Damanjodi, Bokaro, Nagpur, Allahabad, and so on ... In fact I was ok with it ... if not happy ... So I wasn't paining for Home at all ....
Its my state of inertia which I m pained to leave ... this External force of BHEL is really changing my state of Rest (coz, there was no uniform motion ... no there was no motion at all ... in my lifestyle of the last 6 months) ...
Looking back at the past 6 months and 18 days -
4 sept - the day of saying Talaaq ... Talaaq ... Talaaq ... to HDFC SubStandard Life ...
Then days of going to places to find out the best avenues for next steps ...
And then wasting all my earnings on wrong decisions ...
Infact my total earnings at HDFCSL were really really BAD INVESTMENTS ...
Wherever I invested them ... Whenever I invested them ... They always found a way to the drain and always went down it ...
(Hopefully that luck changes with BHEL coz I really can't afford 4 more years of Bad investments)
Wherever I invested them ... Whenever I invested them ... They always found a way to the drain and always went down it ...
(Hopefully that luck changes with BHEL coz I really can't afford 4 more years of Bad investments)
Then Going to a regular curriculum of daily doing just 1 thing at a fixed time (not actually fixed but close to it ... and my whole day was planned in accordane to it) ...
And not to forget the countless Written tests, Interviews and train or flight journeys all across India to give them ...
and These 3 hours of Tortures reqd. 3 weeks of preps which I never did ...
Usually last day technique was my tactic and strategy ... and It worked too ...
and These 3 hours of Tortures reqd. 3 weeks of preps which I never did ...
Usually last day technique was my tactic and strategy ... and It worked too ...
Sometimes I felt like I was golden for Writtens ... especially those of MBA - marketing, operations, anything in the whole goddarn world... cleared them all... It was ecstatic ...
This all was a long drawn process: from I written in 22 Aug 2010 to last interview in 10 Mar 2011 (still many results awaiting ... and the BAAP of it all is still awaiting ... but am not gonna dwell on that right now)
Finally finished it and then went to a rut situation for 11 days where I have been doing nothing but sleeping, eating or on PC watching movies or playing games ...
BUT
Now I'll have to study Electronics, go to office learn power generation and so on...
Thus the Second law of motion is gonna hit me real hard now ...
DAMN YOU NEWTON !!!
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